My life (during one of my episodes)

Well where do i start,what do i say,i'm not quite sure partly as this is my first blog and partly as at the moment i don't really know if i need a shit or a hair cut if you know what i mean.One thing i do know is one of the reasons i've decided to start blogging (if thats what you say) is that i have been inspired by my friend Ruth's blogs and its like waiting for eastenders to come on waiting to read Ruth's next blog,i love the way she is able to express herself and say what's on her mind,this i feel is something i need to do myself but i seem to be either totally misunderstood or just totally ignored.At this point i feel i should warn you that if you don't like what i say then do not read on,i'm the type of person that does speak his mind very much,and can be very blunt,this is not meant to offend its just the way i am,which i'm not about to apologise for.One thing i will apologise for is my grammer and at times my spelling,although i will endevour to do my best.Before we go any further i must warn you that i suffer form bi polar disorder,which at the moment is a big part of my life as i'm in the middle of what can only be described as an episode.Not sure if any one will read this as i'm a blog virgin and i don't know how all of this works,but if you do thanks and feel free to comment