I,ve decided today that i will use my blog as more of a diary than anything else as i want to try and keep a log of whats happening in my life at the moment as i know that i'm shall we say not at my best at present,although today i feel i've had a break through.Today by chance i got talking to some one that i know,a friend as such,but not a good friend and i found a certian level of understanding that i've not found before.I've met this friend on a few occasions and was aware that she also suffers from bi polar disorder or as she calls it manic depression (same condition just different names) and it was like having been on holiday some where and as much as you tell people about your holiday unless they've been there,no one else know's what its like or how cold it was or how long the days and nights are or how lonely it can be,but i knew that my friend had been on the same holiday as me.Today i didn't feel like i was on my own,today i didn't feel so isolated,today i felt like i was a little bit more normal because today for the first time in my life i met some one that had been on holiday to the same place as me.Thanks Jack